“Be comforted, small one, in your smallness.
He lays no merit on you.
Receive and be glad.”
~ C. S. Lewis, in Perelandra
I suppose, if you clicked this tab, you’d like to know something “about” me. Well, if we start with what matters most, I’m a follower of Jesus Christ; wife to George; mom to Jacob, Grace, and Luke; mother-in-law to Curtis and Sarah; Emzee to Harper, Naomi, Malia, Eliot, and Haven; and hopefully a good neighbor and a friend to many.
In December of 2011, we bought a house on the street where I grew up, because my mother had Alzheimer’s, and we couldn’t leave my gentle, heartbroken father to walk that journey alone. For the next year and a half, I spent a lot of time simply being with my parents, or sitting with Mom to give Dad a break. It was one of the hardest, most beautiful experiences of my life, and I wrote about it here under the category “A Long Good-bye.”
When I’m not busy doing life with family, church, and friends, I write and speak. I also love photography, have a life-long relationship with music, and if you give me a good beat, I’ll get the whole room dancing.
Wherever I am, I desire to be fully present, to see Him everywhere, and to remember that every breath is grace. I’m leaning hard and finding Him faithful, and I never lose the wonder.
I’m a small one, and I’m comforted in my smallness, learning to receive with gladness, and sharing the view from here with you.
Thanks for stopping by. I hope you feel welcome, because you are.
I love your website 🙂
Hi Jeanne –
I am one of the many people who has visited your site since Tyler Martin mentioned you on his blog for Claire. Since then, I’ve purchased your book, and I’ve finished it in a quick 2 days (which is a compliment to you because I usually fall asleep within a sentence or two after juggling two kids, 4 & 2, and working full time.)
Your book was beautiful. I think my favorite excerpts were at the end, when all those who are closest to Jacob also added their piece. I especially loved hearing from George.
I don’t know Claire. I just heard about her through one of Tyler’s co-workers, and I have been following the story since early June. I hold vigil to his blog, just as I held vigil to your story. The uncertainty that lays ahead for Tyler, Tiffany and his girls can be daunting, but I agree that the love, support, and prayers that rallies around them will help Claire and her family get through this… no matter the outcome, it will be beautiful. That is the underlying message I gained from your book and from Tyler’s blog.
In your book, you talked about how you held Jacob as tight as you could when he was 18 months old, after visiting a sick child. Since the day my girls came into my life, I’ve cherished every day I have with them. In the last year, I have seen so much happen around me, but not directly close to me; however, all the incidents, which have involved young children under 5 – either death or near-death, have put me in a place where I am fixated (even more so) on cherishing every moment I can with my girls and my husband. I joke that if it were up to me, I’d stick them in a padded cell and leave them there so they won’t get hurt. I appreciate so much what I have.
All the while, I don’t want to lose the awareness of people who have been impacted by life-changing events. It’s astounding how the media only talks about the initial tragedies, statistics based on death, and there are rarely any mention about the recovery and its outcome. The recovery is a forgotten story that needs to be told. Tyler is making that happen in his blog, and you did that as well with your book. Because of the little fire you both lit for me regarding this kind of awareness, now I am in a place where I want to help. I’m not quite sure what that would be yet, but it’s yet another ripple that is taking place.
Thank you for sharing your story. Please share more about Jacob on your blog. I love your excerpts of conversations at the dinner table.
Today is the greatest day, and I am in it.
Rollin – Dallas, TX
Rollin,
What beautiful thoughts! Thank you with all my heart. May the Lord show you His purposes for the fire He has lit in your heart, and may every ripple set in motion accomplish all that He intends.
Love to you and your cherished family. They are blessed to have you!
Jeanne
I found you via little Claire’s blog. I love it! It’s amazing at how tragedy, no matter what it is, can cause so many common emotions people. Thank you for sharing!
Hi Jeanne,
I’ve been pondering this note for some time; hope it’s ok that I’m leaving some of it as a comment?
Your writing style and sense of reflection so resonate with me. I am always struck by the beauty of your words and the complementary photos you share. I’m wondering if you have a mentoring service similar to Mary DeMuth’s Writing Spa? Forgive me if I’ve overlooked something to that regard on your blog, but I don’t recall seeing anything.
Perhaps you’d be willing to send me your thoughts/pricing/ideas privately?
Thank you, Jeanne!
Jane
I had a very moving experience at EPC Marshall on Friday, 10.14.11 that I would like to share with you, Miss Jeanne. My husband and I where visiting from FPC in Waskom for the Missions Conference. I heard and angel singing out behind us! Something about your Jacob stirred my heart! He is beautiful!!!! Long story short, I had no idea what blessings and miracles have happened in your family’s lives! My Grandmother has your book, I figured out on Saturday that you are the lady on the back of the book!!!!!!! I read it cover to cover in 1.5 days! It has furthered and strengthened my faith by leaps and bounds! God is all around Jacob and we just love him!!!! Thank you for sharing your family’s story and being such a faithful example! Much love and many blessings to your entire family!
Dear Michelle, thank you so much for sharing this with me! Your words are a gift I will treasure. Much love and blessings to you and your family as well.
Love,
Jeanne
Greetings Jeanne! Thank you for being an inspiration in this dark world. The Light of Christ is within you; making this fallen world a better place to live 🙂 I have admired Zhanna & Stepa for many years; long story, short… my daughter is adopted from Kazakhstan; Aigul is now 38. We bring her many nieces and nephews here in the summer; they are all devout Muslims. As you noticed in your recent visit to KZ, the people are so beautiful; the government… mercy! I don’t want to say anything disparaging, but heaven help the people of KZ, especially those who are suffering from physical and mental disabilities. “Our Hope is in Jesus, and we shall never hope in vain.”
Thank you again for your amazing heart of love for the least in the Kingdom. Blessing to you and all those you touch! Love, for His Glory! Scott & Bonnie -1 Cor 13:13 🙂
Scott & Bonnie, thank you so much for these encouraging words and for your prayers! And thank you for your love and service to the Lord, your daughter, and her extended family. I know God hears and is answering your prayers for KZ. Yes, the people are beautiful and so generous. And, yes, they live with many hardships, especially the disabled. May the Lord pour out His Spirit mightily on His faithful servants there — Zhanna, Stepa, and others — shining His light through them into the darkest corners of suffering and spiritual need. “We never hope in vain.” So true! Hallelujah!
Blessings on your precious family, with much love.
Jeanne
I wish I understood. Who is Jacob, and what does Jacob have to do with Abby? Im lost in this story, perhaps because I’m still lost in the drowning death of my own grand child at age 3, the death of my daughter in love to cancer at 23, the loss of my other two grandchildren when their mother stole them away, accusing my son of hideous crimes that he never would do, effectively cutting him and us out of their lives. This life– this life is cruel. I know Jesus, I understand that he loves me. Or I did. I have worked as the secretary to a beloved pastor for 11 years who is leaving now because of the pain inflicted by others in our church. I am weary. I do not understand.
Dear Michelle. I’m sitting here, feeling your weariness, aching for you, and wishing I had words that would make sense of all your losses. I can answer your first question. Jacob is our thirty-three-year-old son who suffered a brain injury from near drowning at age fifteen. Abby is a three year old child with Down Syndrome. The only thing that connects them is a thread of redemption, God intersecting stories and turning despair into hope. I can’t begin to explain they “whys” behind all the pain you’ve suffered. I can only encourage you to keep leaning on the Jesus you know who loves you, your broken family, and your beloved, wounded pastor. I wish I had better words, but I do have this. I believe that nothing is beyond God’s redeeming hand. He sees you. He is with you and with those you love. He is a high priest who has suffered in every way we suffer, and He ever lives to intercede for you. I pray He meets you in your heartbreak with grace and peace that defy explanation. I wish I could hug you right now.
Holding you before the throne,
Jeanne
Jeanne, A friend shared your blog with me last week. I just want to say that you are such an inspiration. I lost my four-year-old son nearly three years ago to brain cancer. I am finishing up the book of our journey now, called Joseph’s Joy…Living with unstoppable hope. Your life and ministry is an example and encouragement to me in my own calling to use this trial to glorify God and to help others. I can’t wait to read more from you!
Dear Joy, thank you so much for your kind words. I’m humbled and so grateful to be able to inspire you in your journey, and I pray God’s deepest comfort will be your daily portion as you celebrate the brief but beautiful and meaningful life of your son. I have no doubt God will use your words and your life to help others and to turn hearts toward Him. It’s a pleasure to meet you.
Love,
Jeanne
Hey Jeanne,
My name is Jeff Lakin and I saw your latest blog post though the YL Capernaum newsletter. I knew that I recognized the name and I got really excited about your involvement with Capernaum. I was at Grace Church with you all in Lynchburg and eventually went on staff there. I think we were in a small group together??? We stayed in Lynchburg for 12 years and then went on YL staff and one of the best parts of this for us has been starting Capernaum in the Roanoke area. We love Capernaum and we constantly learn from these kids what it means to be “alive.” Blessings on you and I hope your dream comes true!!! Peace!
Thanks so much for sharing this with me! I love it! Blessings on your ministry, Jeff! Thank you for all you do.
Love your book ‘parting the waters’ given to me by a friend! So touching and inspiring!! Thank you so much!
You’re welcome! Thank you so much for letting me know!
What a blessing!